Category Archives: Bipolar Disorder

Apr 10 2012

I do not have the average bully situation, as it is with the people I consider friends.

My name is Evin Rogers, a 13 year old girl. From the outside my life seems perfect but there are many deeper issues. I have struggled with Bullying, Family troubles, Body image issues, and my doctors are considering that I have Bipolar disorder. My support system is my friends, and without them I wouldn’t be here today. But they’re also part of the problem. I do not admit it but I do have serious body image issues. I’m 5′ 7″ and 100 pounds, but I still consider myself fat and think I need to lose weight. If I lose 2 pounds I am considered underweight. Living in Florida, everyone wears bikinis and short shorts and the temperature reaches into the 100s, but I still wear baggy jeans and sweatshirts. I don’t even drink a full glass of water a day because I’m worried about water weight and have had health issues because of it. I do not have the average bully situation, as it is with the people I consider friends. I don’t blame them, I haven’t told them that I find some things really offensive or hurtful. I do not speak up even when they talk about my weight or when they complain about what seems like a life with no issues. I think it’s time I did though, and while working through my own issues, I want to help others. My family has gone through a lot; my Dad left a few years ago so it is now just My mom, My 3 brothers, and me. My mom works double a full time work week just to make ends meet and sometimes it still isn’t enough. One of my brothers is 18 but has done drugs and drank heavily since he was 15. Him and my other brother hit me, and bully me too. The only member of my family that supports me in my goals and dreams is my eldest brother Jamie. He lives in an hour away though and works 6 days a week and goes to school so I barely get to see or speak with him. What has kept me alive has been the people I meet through my volunteering and their stories, a little girl named Layla Grace who helped me discover a passion and future, my music and my friends distracting me from my troubles and even saving my life as I stare at a pill bottle. None of these people know what a major part of my life they have been but I would give anything for them in a second. Talking to others with similar issues has always helped me and now I want to help others, facing their issues head on.

Jan 3 2012

What is God calling you to build that you don’t quite understand?

 

Coleen York pointed out last month via Twitter that Noah didn’t even know what a flood was but he trusted in God and stepped out in faith.  She asked a very important question, what is God calling you to build that you don’t quite understand?

It’s hard to believe that I began this community almost four years ago.  To say I didn’t understand would be an understatement.  I had no idea where to even begin.  All I knew was that God has placed a calling on my to serve as a bridge to connect people with the help they needed.  At the time I was struggling with an addiction and undiagnosed Bipolar Disorder.  How was I supposed to help anyone?

That was when a dear friend of mine sent me an email that simply said, God doesn’t call the equipped.  He equips the called.  I prayed continuously for several weeks before I finally stepped out in faith.  And, look where Open Our Eyes today.

 

 

Trust in Him.  Let go.
He’ll always catch you.