Category Archives: Felicia Carmela

Dec 4 2011

Never hesitate to ask for help.

Not a day goes by where there isn’t a person at our school who doesn’t think about the good times they’ve had with you or where they don’t stop and think about how much they miss you. We all do. You changed our lives forever. You were such a chait person. You were a great musician, you were so smart, you always knew how to make people laugh. Do you know how much I miss you making fun of Mr. Mink? I miss being able to sit there and laugh with you about how annoying he was. I’ve always wanted to be able to play the violin like you, and I continue on in memory of you and your skills. We’ll never be able to be in a quartet together like I hoped, but you’ll forever be there to listen to my playing and give me corrections. I know you will, I can feel you there in the orchestra room with us. You know that you were in the video to show to new parents and students when they come to Pine View, right? Did you see all of the tour guides there start crying when we saw you and watched to tell everyone that you’re a Pine View student? I had to watch that four times in the same week, and I cried every single time. Just like you would have cried while seeing the last Harry Potter movie with all of your friends.

It’s been 5 months since I last saw your face. 5 months since I last talked to you. 5 months since I last saw you smile. 5 months since you’ve been gone. 5 months since you killed yourself without any warning. We would have been here for you. If only we could have seen the signs, we would have done something for you. Our school bonded together more than I’ve ever seen after hearing the news of your death, but it doesn’t feel the same without you with us. We miss you. I miss you. We love you. I love you. RIP Tahir – Forever Chait  (12/25/94-5/3/11)

If Tahir would have gone to someone, he would still be here right now. I don’t want to see anyone leave this world this way. I, as well as everyone else in OOE, am here for anyone who has the thoughts of suicide. We all care about you and want to help you. Never hesitate to ask for help.

Dec 4 2011

HELLO WORLD. I’m Felicia, there’s really nothing else you can do with my name other than calling me Fe so Felicia works (unless you want to give me a really cool nickname, I don’t mind). I’m one of the new interns here at Open Our Eyes so you’ll get to know me as time goes on and you can read my little bio on the interns page as well. I’ll be blogging on here every Monday and every other Friday from now on so I figured before you start reading the totally awesome blogs I’ll be producing that you should get to know me.
I started getting involved with Open Our Eyes because of my love for Brittny but what we do is something I’ve been passionate about for as long as I can remember. My life has consisted of many rough patches that include depression, suicide, and addiction. Even if it wasn’t happening to me, it was happening to people I cared about and I just wanted to find a way to stop it. Working with Open Our Eyes is kind of my way of remembering the people I’ve lost through helping others and music. Oh, music. Music is probably the most important thing to me in the entire world. I can’t imagine life without it and it’s wonderful healing powers. It’s something I feel everyone should turn to when they’re feeling blue. Music is therapeutic (I would know, I wrote a paper on it). If you don’t believe me, take a look at Open Our Eyes. We use music to help people get through things. What’s great about open our eyes is that we’re a community and a family. We’re here to help no matter what. I feel like the sense of having a group of people always being there for someone has been lost in this crazy society and it’s good to know that Open Our Eyes has kept the feeling alive.
-Felicia :)